Fallon has been gone since September. It seems like forever. Things are still going tenuously, sometimes OK, sometimes horrible—living without her still seems impossible, yet we’re doing it. Nighttime is awful, I have been sleeping with headphones on, piping noise into my brain so I don’t have to listen to my thoughts. I can’t stop […]
I find myself oddly OK today—at least no more bent out of shape than is usual for me these days. Today is Fallon’s one year ampuversary. It’s rainy here. I’m kind of glad. All my party plans for her centered around the yard, and I am sure we would be there if she was here […]
My warrior girl is gone. My love, my heart, my Fally… I knew someday I would need to write something like this. I never thought it would be this soon. All indications were that Fallon was doing awesome. Two weeks ago we saw 2 doctors—good reports from each. X-rays and bloodwork were good. You can […]
So, we’re working this new normal. I’m still trying to figure things out, trying to make things better, trying to be efficient—but not in our prior “everything is a crisis” mode—all the time, anyway. I used to blog here every day, sometimes twice a day once I started, as there was so much to communicate. […]
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