Nothing But Love in Her Heart

Jan 13

Odds and Ends

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We’re out to beat the odds. I am all over this.

So much has been happening. Fallon has been doing GREYT, and we’re working hard to keep it that way. My focus is making this new normal run smoothly, and it gets better all the time. There are many elements to this, but it’s all based on being more effective in all we do. We have invested so much in this horrible, wonderful time that it would be a shame to see it crumble away because we missed a detail. And Fallon’s rockin’ this. Cancer is horrible. Osteosarcoma is horrible. The odds aren’t in our favor—but there are dogs who break the odds. We’re trying to do our best to make Fallon one of those statistic-busters

Maggie is always the cheerleader.

Rehab is going awesome. Fallon seemed a little more nervous when we got there this week, but was all better once we got into the rehab office—and she worked the underwater treadmill like a champion. I really believe she enjoys it. This week she increased in speed and duration.

Treats always help

Dr. Laura measured her swollen ankle, and it’s down slightly. So all’s good there. We made a plan to go every three weeks. It’s optional, really, but it’s the one appointment we take Fallon to that she really seems to like. Plus I like another doctor feeling her all over—just in case there’s something we miss. For example, Dr. Laura noticed one of Fallon’s hip bones was more prominent than the other. This was new, not noted before. After feeling around a bit more and watching Fallon walk, she postulated that because of Fallon’s strong triangle base, when she ambulates, she compensates to one side, making one hip work harder than the other. Nothing to worry about, just to watch.

I’m still home cooking for 1 meal per day, and supplementing with kibble. Last time Fallon was weighed, she was up slightly, but an insignificant amount, not enough to worry. We’ll monitor. I only guess at what the correct amount of food is. I’m also guessing it is relatively balanced nutritionally, as I use the recipe in the Dog Cancer Survival Guide. Probably we should consult a nutritionist, but funds are limited—and this is working, so far. The process is getting easier as I learn the ropes.

Yum, right?

Two more chemotherapy to go. We’ll see what happens in 6 weeks when we’re at that point and the 6 carboplatin are complete. We’re very hopeful Fallon will be able to get the new osteosarcoma vaccine. We’re considering a clinical trial at the VCC, and this week I am leaning toward Fallon participating…but I want to talk with Dr. Sue once more first. My dealbreaker last week was it could entail some more trips to the VCC, and that’s a long day trip. This week—if there’s even the smallest chance that the vaccine being studied shrinks tumors, I would regret so much not making the drive. In the clinical trial, there’s a chance Fallon could fall into the control group and get a placebo, we have no way of knowing. But I’m up for trying everything. A cool thing this week–Fallon is featured in Dr. Sue’s Vlog–it’s very sweet

https://www.facebook.com/DrSueCancerVet/videos/1794656953939644/?hc_ref=ARRd5imkvmohhbT7yVs3my-X0s1ll-3dH1J4YdUIK7q70IPXivr_IxCXCQkN_tX9ga0&pnref=story

I’m working on me. I let quite a bit go when I was trying to figure out how to help Fallon. I haven’t been taking good care of myself. I’ve started a new healthy focus, taking care of myself inside and out. The Dog Cancer Survival Guide starts out reminding you to take good care of YOU, and I read it way back when (like 3 months ago—seems like 3 decades). Now it’s finally sinking in. It’s like when the flight attendant tells you to put the oxygen mask on yourself first, to make sure you can take care of those who need you. I’m trying to chill more. These last three months I’ve not been myself. I get upset easily. I have a very short fuse. But stress feeds cancer, so I am doing all I can to keep Fallon stress-free. I don’t want to get her upset. I want her to have every advantage.

Time to set another goal. I already made hotel reservations for Spring Dewey—Dewey Beach, DE in April. We leave 82 days from today. Dewey Beach is one of Fallon’s favorite beaches, and Spring Dewey is one of our favorite greyhound events because it’s low key with nice people—and it jump starts the summer. We are on our way!!! (in 82 days!!)

We’ll be there with one fewer leg in April

Jan 05

100 Long Days Have Flown By.

Posted in Uncategorized Tagged awesome, chemo, diet, DrSueCancerVet, Homemade, Maggie, Optimism, osteosarcoma, treatment, tripawd 2 Comments »

It’s been 100 days since it was confirmed that Fallon had a bone tumor…85 days that Fallon has been Tripawd. We’ve come a long, long way. I forget what life was like before. What did I do all day? These days are structured around Fallon, but nothing like the first month or two. That new normal is really kicking in. It’s more like trying to figure out better ways to do things—meals that make sense and are healthier, day structure, etc. I re-read sections of the Dog Cancer Survival Guide as now they are in context and make more sense. I regularly check the prices of Apocaps and K9 Immunity to see where it’s less expensive. I’m learning sections of Tripawds beyond the blogs and see how much I missed by not figuring this out earlier. I cry some still, but not for days at a time like before. I’ve got to work on getting myself back together–‘cause Awesome Fallon’s got this.

Chemotherapy #4 is in the books, and went well, as the prior ones have. We feel very grateful that Fallon hasn’t had any nasty side effects afterward, and that she’s doing FABULOUS, per Dr. Sue. I wanted to discuss the new osteosarcoma vaccine, as I desperately want Fallon to get it, but there wasn’t much time for the level of detail I wanted (it was the day after holiday and the hospital was VERY busy). BUT, Dr. Sue brought it up first and said they will be getting it at the VCC, but they haven’t received it yet, and we’d re-visit this in 3 weeks when we’re back for carboplatin #5, AND that Fallon is a great candidate for the vaccine. So YAY!! We also discussed another clinical trial for osteosarcoma that they have at the VCC, to examine anti-tumor immune responses to proteins EFGR and HER2. I don’t know what that means. But long story short on that one—I read through material provided to us, and the main thing that is turning us against this one is we’d need to make an extra trip to the VCC that we would not normally for a blood collection the week after the protein vaccine. It is 2.5 or 3 hours depending on traffic, and we’re in Winter here, so we are considering the benefits carefully—and the fact there may be none, as there is a control group that receives a placebo. However, if the stars align, any tumor growth could be slowed. So we’ll decide before chemo #5. We can do this concurrently with the osteo vaccine.

Moral supporter Maggie generally likes to socialize at the oncology appointment, but she was hypnotized by a nearby cat.

I have been working the home cooking HARD. I’ve made 3 batches, and we get the process down better (mostly) every time. Most recent tries are adapted from the Dog Cancer Survival Guide recipe—first mix was beef and chicken, red peppers, cabbage and carrots, and brown rice. There were some ingredients I just could not find that time (turkey necks (or any necks, for that matter), so I added ground up calcium tablets, as that substitution was mentioned, and also could not find liver of any kind, so I left it out, because I just wanted to get started). Next recipe was better, chicken, beef liver (found it!), cottage cheese, brown rice, fresh broccoli, fresh cauliflower. Found turkey necks, but lazied out by using Citrical again. My big mistake this time—trying to save work by doubling the recipe. I don’t have any container big enough to mix a double recipe! It took much longer to mix than it had to, and we actually added work. Boo.

I decided to feed a big morning meal, and then put down kibble later in the day in case the girls are still hungry. I did step up the quality of kibble a little and decided on Taste of the Wild, as it was rated really well, mentioned in the Dog Cancer Survival Guide as a good food, and was the most cost-effective of the options named. Fallon’s weight was up a tick at her last chemotherapy, but not a concerning amount, so we’ll just monitor. Her weight is perfect now, and for mobility’s sake we want it to stay that way.

Next week—rehab again!! Fallon’s favorite!!

More to come….

Dec 31

Hope for the New Year

Posted in Uncategorized Tagged awesome, Grateful, greyt, Hope, Optimism, thanks, treatment, tripawd 8 Comments »

A friend (“friend”, I guess) recently said to me, “you’re fighting a losing battle” in regard to Fallon’s treatment.

I didn’t know what to say about that. It wasn’t what I wanted to hear. Fallon is doing better than we had hoped. She’s rockin’ this from every angle. She is doing AWESOME. But understood, maybe she won’t always be.

So, what is losing?

Despite Fallon’s diagnosis, we have lots to be positive about. Fallon’s feeling greyt. We still have her. She has a perfect team helping guide her (and us) through treatment. She’s happy and energetic. She is more loved than you can imagine, and gives it back to us in abundance. She has a fantastic sister and best friend in Maggie. We’re settling into our new normal—which, three months ago, I wouldn’t have believed. It’s coming together, though. We have support from all directions. I’ve survived layoffs at work twice. We have what we need to all keep warm and fed. Good stuff is happening. I have hope that 2018 will be wonderful. I hope we’re doing all we can to make it so for us all.

Daddy loves Fally

We’ve already won, no matter what else happens.

Here’s our girls playing together in the yard.

Happy New Year to all!!! Hope your 2018 is Greyt.

Dec 24

Starting the Diet Improvements…..Now.

Posted in Uncategorized Tagged awesome, crazy, diet, Fallon, Homemade, Love, Optimism 3 Comments »

I used to think we did well by our dogs with our kibble. They eat 4Health Grain Free from Tractor Supply. It is mid-range on Pet Food Advisor, and the controversial ingredients in the food (which is like pea skins, or something like that) didn’t bother me much. More importantly, the price was right. In the past few months, I’ve done much more reading and research, and I have no doubt we could do better. There’s way too much information out there, and little is clear cut—there’s many choices, and much is open to interpretation. Nonetheless, time to think this through and try harder, in particular in regard to supporting Fallon’s treatment for cancer.

We decided to jump right in and fine-tune along the way, because I haven’t found what I think is the perfect thing for us…yet. I found a recipe on the K9 Medicinals website that contained ingredients I knew I could procure easily, was pretty clear cut with do-able choices, and didn’t look hard to throw together (more on this later). Yesterday I went out and bought all the ingredients, and set out to make our girls’ first homemade meal.

The recipe needed ground meat (I got beef and turkey), carrots, apple, other veggies (I got cauliflower and broccoli), egg, and yogurt (as an alternative to raw goat milk, as where do you get that on Christmas Eve eve in Latham?). The veggies were harder than I thought. I looked in the frozen section, as I’m new at this and relatively unequipped with veggie knowledge—and lazy. The thought of prepping fresh veggies was enough to turn me off from continuing on this mission. The website gave a rather limited list of veggies to add, in the form of “such as…”, so I probably had more liberty than I took. Nonetheless, of what was listed, all I saw in frozen bags without sauces or added stuff was broccoli and cauliflower. So broccoli and cauliflower it is. I’ll read more and find some other choices before the next time I shop. Or perhaps suck it up and shop in produce?

So shopping wasn’t bad (factoring out the crowds—not part of this story, but horrible.) I brought all the ingredients home and set to building the recipe.

Live and learn moment—I bought a food processor, a nice one, yesterday at Kohl’s. It is the biggest I could find, 14 cups, and not a bad price with the sale, a 30% off Kohl’s coupon, and a kickback of Kohl’s Cash coming that we’ll put toward (a Foodsaver? Muffin Tins? Meat grinder thing for the food processor? Something to support this project.) You probably knew this, but do NOT fill up the whole food processor bowl—it works awesome, but only when it’s less than half full. I tend to read instructions on a need-to-know basis, or when I’ve run into a problem I need to fix. I would have saved lots of time and mess with prior knowledge of this.

Once it was all mixed up, I took the time to measure out half pound portions, because I read somewhere that the amount of this recipe the girls should eat in a day should be 2% of their weight. Because I still have kibble in the diet, I cut that in half. Hope my math and reasoning is right. I froze the half pound meat patties in big muffin tins, until I ran out, then moved to small muffin tins (2 will be the serving size of these), and when I ran out of those, just lumps of meat patties frozen on a cookie sheet.

YUM, right? Fresh from the freezer. That’s ice on the top.

Live and learn moment number 2—these take a few hours to thaw out. Tonight I will pull a couple out of the freezer so they will be ready in the morning.

Ummmm…Mom. Where is my breakfast?

Anyway, once the meat patties thawed this morning, I added the Omega 3 Fatty Acid caps to Fallon’s, as they were prescribed by Dr. Sue. This is a messier proposition than you might think, as the skin of these capsules is bulletproof, it was rough to pierce with a knife, and the oil may squirt in your face once it is liberated. I understood them better by the time I did the third one. This is available in liquid form; we’ll get that one next time. I also added the girls’ usual supplements that I have not been giving them since Fallon’s diagnosis: glucosamine, chondroitin, MSM, vitamin C, and for Fallon, yucca. These in theory help with mobility and achy joints. Then I added digestive enzyme caps to Fallon’s because I read somewhere that that’s a thing you can do, plus I had some.

The verdict—super delicious!! The girls wolfed the food down and really seemed to enjoy it. So I decree the homemade food experiment a success to this point. I will monitor for adverse after-effects.

So there’s a new master plan, until I read something that makes me second-guess my master plan and I change it—but I have made enough food for 2 dogs for about 6 more days, so no changes until this is gone and I need to make more. I’ll feed the new homemade, raw diet in the morning, first thing (starting tomorrow, because it will be thawed.) Late morning, I’ll give Fallon her Apocaps, as they are best on an empty stomach. A couple of hours later, I’ll put down the kibble (we’ve always free fed the girls), and I’ll pick it up about 3—4 hours before bedtime. Then Apocaps again at bedtime. Right now this feels like a decent approach, especially since I have been doing a halfassed job of adhering to the Apocaps rule of it being more effective on an empty stomach. I think with this approach, we’ll have the best bang for the buck on the Apocaps.

Future considerations: I have to find a better approach to storing the home made food. Maybe more muffin tins, then pop them into zip lock freezer bags? I have a sinking feeling, however, that these will not “pop” easily from the muffin tins…we’ll see. Then we’ll need to decide whether we’ll aim for 100% home cooked meals, or keep a proportion of kibble— I will probably look into a more highly rated dry food. And is this a healthy, balanced diet? Who knows, but it’s got healthy ingredients. There’s a website, BalanceIt.com that I’ve been referred to and have briefly explored, and their schtick is you can plug your recipe in and it will tell you what secret potion you need to buy from them to make a balanced diet. So maybe that, although not spending extra $$ is more attractive. Finally, it wouldn’t be bad to weigh Fallon and make sure her weight stays stable, because it is perfect now. Maybe tomorrow…

More to come…

Oh, and Merry Christmas!!!

Dec 20

A Day at the Rehab, and a Little More on Diet

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We were lucky, our rehab had a cancellation so we were able to get in for a full appointment yesterday. The original plan was to go briefly today to get the orientation on Fallon’s new Therapaw custom carpal support. Instead, we got the orientation AND the underwater treadmill for Fallon. We were thrilled, as the next time we could go would be the second week of January, due to a conflict with the chemotherapy appointment (Fallon has a very active social life these days).

We met the new brace. It’s very nice, well made, looks soft and comfy, while supportive, and should not be hard to put on, Fallon just prefers that it be off. Once it is on, Fallon moves around like a show pony, lifting her front leg (the only one there) unnaturally high, kind of kicking it out. She launched while in it at the rehab office and kicked right into the water dish, which went flying. We are memorable everywhere we go. It will take some time for her to get used to it, so for now we made a plan to put it on for maybe 15 minutes, maybe one time a day, to increase to more frequently as she gets more comfortable with it.

Then it was time for the treadmill. Fallon was still a little frazzled, but she calmed down quickly. She really seems to enjoy the treadmill, and worked really hard when in there. She tripled her duration from her last try, and there was really no learning curve, like the last time, she just hopped right along with no problem. I think she could have done more, but it can be deceptively tiring, so being prudent with the duration increases makes sense. We were eager to see if it still made her energetic when we got home, as it did the last time. It presented differently, she was wide awake and engaged, looked really happy, but was not tearing around the house as she did after the first session. Of course, it was a longer, more intense session and she may have been pooped. But she seems to enjoy it so much, so we want to continue. Now is not a time for spending extra money, but there’s so much good that comes from this, it’s money well spent. We’ll go back January 9.

I have a bead on the direction of the diet change, and hope to start this weekend. There’s so much information out there that it’s confusing, so for now, have found some information on the K9 Medicinals page (where the delicious immunity treats come from!) It has some direction about raw meat patties that looks like I can handle, and The Dog Cancer Survival Guide also has something I can generally work with in terms of a recipe to follow. She will continue on her 4 Health Grain Free kibble until I can figure out the next best step there, but I’ll start implementing the meat patties or some better food base mixture soon. I suppose this includes Maggie as well. I think I have to get a food processor. Sigh. I will watch for sales, there are tons now!

We hope it will be a quiet, uneventful week. Paul and I are both off until January 3 after this week, so lots of Fallon and Maggie cuddling time is in our future!! Our next Chemotherapy is January 2, so our time off is extended until then.

Merry Christmas, and thank you so much for all your support. I don’t know what we’d do without friends.